Sunday, May 31, 2009
7:11 AM
i dont understand why i always have to succumb to distressing arguements with my parents. i bet they can top the list of parents who don't understand their child at all. but can i really blame them? i believe for this situations to happen, i play a part. yea right, sometimes i wonder, did i make the right decision allowing them to imgine who i really am? it's an isolation."i love you, i've loved you all along"
Friday, May 29, 2009
8:23 PM
last day of school sian.afterwards are all days and days of cca, project, competitions and homework. i'm seriously sceptical of any holiday we'll get. sec 3 life... but i bet yr 4, 5 and 6 are even worse
anw, got back results. seems like 4 ppl in 3c got 3.8 haha. 3.7 for me >< blame it on my la and hcl which got a b3 and b4 respectively, i wonder why my chinese has really deproved by a huge gap. shall i try to buck up since my mum keeps insisting how impt it is for the chinese to be proficient in their mother tongue zzz...
but 1 thing i'm happy about. on percentile, bio-98, chem-95. these are my favourite subjt, including math but this time round, i only got an 88 for math due to horrible carelessness and mindlessness. and im shocked mr teo said this:"sirui has an inquisitive mind and is able to grasp physics concepts easily". LOL when did i ever find physics easy to grasp. well, maybe sometimes.. and the last sentence:"sirui has the potential to do exceptionally well in Science and Mathematics in future" haha thanks for that lol. this is really an encouragement in my future endeavours and i'll try to work harder to maintain this grade despite moderations done this time..
Wednesday- CROSS COUNTRY yeay!
ran with shirley, zy, zoenin and meiyu. xh couldnt run due to her leg injury resulted from the cross country training=.= at the start of the race, we were all slacking and attempting to walk throughout but after that, meiyu and i cant put up with the extreme "slowness" in wads supposedly "cross country" lol. and we decided to spar each other as an act of encouragement to run. haha. we were on par initially but after that we lost each other... and i ran myself sigh. finally after the race, i went to get some milo with meiyu when i found her along the race track. moments later, while we were enjoying milo, mr ong came by and asked us to leave, saying he'd tell the vendor to close down later and stop giving milo... lucky for us, we had out share :)
and shirley disappeared too so i stuck with zoenin in the gryphon area while shirley and zy strolled by. the four of us than sat tgt throughout the whole prize presentation. shirley and i played with grass out of boredom and zy znd zoenin went chatting. i bet its abt wu yue tian! hmph, cant stand it. they often neglect me bcos of wu yue tian =.= whats so interesting, i just dont understand. they do not have superb voices like leona, neither are they as handsome as shayne ward haha. they're also not as cool as the BSB. maybe its just my preference...
in the moment of bliss, i hope all maintains their value =)
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
6:45 PM
below is a spam of emo entrydidnt feel like posting initially but after visiting xh's blog...
I'm sorry, i know i may have let you'll down by kind of neglecting you'll?
but it wasnt intentional. to self-reflect:
yea right, ive high expectations and want to do well in almost evrything (except languages :/) but this is a motivation for myself to pursue my ambitions bravely
but simultaneously, ive also been pondering on the way ive handled relationships. it may be my fault, but sometimes i just wish to be on my own for a while to sort things out, not that i deliberately neglect my friends.
so sorry if youve ever felt offended by my "momentary isolation" or u can call that mood swings ba.
and i wish i can return to my original self too! i hope i can continue to crap much with my wonderful friends, balancing both studies and relationship-manangement.
anw, isnt it nice for me to go out with zy, xh and shirley again? it's rare that i attend outings etc but not really because of studies or anything, hope you may understand. you just need to know no matter how far we have separated, i still love you all. we're forever best of friends! =) (and i'm touched by xh's post haha)
and i dont really want to speak or blame my parents for anything. i know that many misunderstandings have emerged between me and my family so they have their reasons for doing whatever they are doing. and for me, it isnt an extremely bad idea too. i've learnt to accept whats going on in reality and doubt i'd do anything to change that. the wounds have healed but the scars are still there so whats the point in me turning back time. now, i think there'll nvr be a chance for my parents to really understand or appreciate me. sigh i can literally say i'm dead towards them...
Friday, May 22, 2009
10:42 PM
and do i have to give up on you?i dont know, it seems all over
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
7:28 PM
exams rock
post-exams rock
class outing rocks
yeah, the first 3c class outing. everything was "wonderfully" planned. lol
shan't sound wrong and we must really thank huiwen for her effort in pulling the guys along...
20 ppl, that's quite a thankful amount for a first outing haha lol
but a pity, amanda and i couldnt find any bike rental shop after several hours of hunting and my bottle was almost ruined in honour of the waterbomb games. zzzzz
post-exams rock
class outing rocks
yeah, the first 3c class outing. everything was "wonderfully" planned. lol
shan't sound wrong and we must really thank huiwen for her effort in pulling the guys along...
20 ppl, that's quite a thankful amount for a first outing haha lol
but a pity, amanda and i couldnt find any bike rental shop after several hours of hunting and my bottle was almost ruined in honour of the waterbomb games. zzzzz
some pics
lol, heping's so cute!!!feeling really sian after exams. 'lost sheep', that's what teachers always say. feeling aimless and there doesnt seem to be any respite at all. yes, at all =.=
i just dont love you no more
home isnt where the heart is
Friday, May 8, 2009
5:08 PM
wow* the hardest bio ppr i've donehmph, but anyways i'm happy
not because majority of the papers have ended
and i'm not going to tell the reason =)
seems very lame nowadays... and after stopping to look at my blog
i realise after we have all ascended to yr 3, relationships appeared to have
faded
(shirley's even terminated her blog-lol)
and the most horrible thing is
my blog entries are surreptitiously evolving into reflections
sigh, does that simply means life is no longer like the past
maybe yes
no more fun, no more laugh, no more life'
suddenly feeling so lonely
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
12:46 AM
mid-term math tests always seem like a rushed paper.when can i start to think properly when i'm in for time?
sorry mr ong, i hope i wont fail you
and 3c wont too...
if only i had adequate time, i'm confident to score
but what's the use?
i shant say more.
good luck for chem =)